=] the reason i smile

i sense the beginning of a wonderful friendship 

=]] 

*sigh*

"stay warm"

=] hehehe. im warm now.

kajskjdlk <3

why do people have to be so kajslkdjskd wierd and aksjdkjs cute!?!?! its killing me >_<

working

i am putting my creative genious to work and putting together a completely homemade halloween costume... i figured i shouldnt spend much on a costume and its not a great time to be begging for oodles of money form the parentals at the moment. 

nothing else exciting... i mean it was really one of the most un-exciting days in school ever... only thing that bugged me was ms. cohen and ms. griffing.

~ms. cohen thinks im a dumbass at the computer and i told her i knew what i was annoying and stalked off miffed that she couldnt dazzle me with her neanderthal skill level at the computer. 

~ms. griffin (aka: i seriously doubt anyone likes this woman Griffin) had to of had repeated , "PLEASE SIT IN THE ROW WITH YOUR FOURTH PERIOD CLASS YOUR TEACHER WILL TAKE ATTENDANCE.", a good 100 times. plus... my teacher wasnt even there along with 95% of the other teachers. and i totally could have sat with nikki and sonia. except the assembly wasnt bad.

eh that was the excitement of the day. i dont have any crushes or class drama to blab about and its making me so bored. well actually as long as the drama doesnt involve me im totally good.

OK My Day Today

so i got to school. basically freaked out. i had an english essay for the Lord of the Fliezzz test and in 45 minutes i got... 1 paragraph... and 1/2 done *smiles meekly* i was utterly DISTRACTED! dont blame me for my stressed out head. but we got about 30 minutes today and i got 3 body paragraphs done and half the intro... so maybe... maybe i wont fail... epicly (is that a word?) anywho... that was over and done with... and i was calm and collected... for a while.

period 2 i have design class and our next project happens to be a news magazine where you pick obama or mccain... oh you would think it would be no big deal... but since my conservative nature is so outnumbered a simple "i like Palin" statement is murder. i was yelled at from multiple directions and couldnt even get a word out to tell people how i felt about the whole thing. stupid boys. they just like to make fun of her moose hunting hehe. i'll talk about politics later... im a little sick of them... but then the freshmen sluts were discussing tampons and how much they hurt to take out... not something i was pleased to eavesdrop on. =\ 

period 3 then i had gym and one of my guy friends was kinda ignoring me and my friends... it doesnt help when your gym teacher makes him feel uncomfortable for talking to girls. stupid gym teachers. i also discovered i pulled something under my knee... probably a hamstring and it only hurt when i stretch it... whatever. 

period 4 was as exciting as geometry can be... 

period 5 is lunch.... AHHH lunch... not nearly as epic as last year but it has its share of epic-ness... i love nikki. hahaha. our topics vary from male/female body parts to the hills (hate that show) to politics to algebra class. haha gotta love us. 

period 7 was jsut spanish with "nancy"... shes nice enough to live through spanish. 

period 8 is a disaster...but i've got a B+ in there so no sweat. i love my bio teacher... shes so sweet. 

then i came home and procratinated and then did my MASTERPIECE of a health project. its actually really good i think... i probably did something wrong... i always do but i think i did it pretty well.

nothing particularly interesting. maybe a little but not much. gotta go shower at 11 22 pm... my hair will be all cowlickyy so i will have to pull out the straighening iron in the morning.

g'night.

Procrastination is my drug

procratinating.

yup. thats what i am currently doing.

i have a health project i should be doing.

if i had i choice i think drawing is what i would be doing.

procrastinating

i thought it was rahter clever.

no really i have to go... i'll blog about my day when im done =] so virtually this was another pointless blog.

blogging

i went and read some of my posts and i think i might have the brain of a 3 year old. sont i have anything more intelligent to say?

madd

why do my sisters agrivate me to the point of hurting them? i dont know what else to do when they bother me to that pressure point. i just explode. >_< and my mom does absolutely NOTHING but lecture me afterwards when its too late.

hungry

im hungry kaybye =]

Thinking.

i dont really have that much to think

about

but there are tons of things on my

mind

like how i with she would tell me what he 

thinks

how you mind 

works

what my life might bring

me

why i get annoyed at people so 

easily

why she doesnt tell me whats really bugging 

her

nothing too in-

depth

oooh

i love it. i think it looks fairly real =] i didnt copy and paste at all. i did everything by myself... my sister didnt believe it but i did!
i used this paint/photoshop program and made an ipod from scratch! all on this program... it took me an hour or so...

Blah Blah Blah

im fairly happy now. i feel like going out for a walk but im guessing i cant. oh well.

love.

yet another blog for the day. i just have nothing else to do.

love is such a complicated thing. i wish i had the guts to do anything about the people i think i love.

Books yet again

ok Burned was excellent... if you like books that have a good dose of sadness in them... read it. it was actually happy too. idk check it out. only thing you might not like is the idea of it being written in all poetry... try to focus on what shes saying not the format. its really just a story. its rather clever.

my 3 new reads

• Identical by Ellen Hopkins
• Peeps by Scott Westerfeld
• A Cool Moonlight by Angela Johnson

i think im starting with Peeps.

check ya later.

unintelligent thoughts

ugh. i hate when people think they are so knowledgeable about stuff they have barely done... they think they are top notch experts. and they aren't... that happens to me a lot. i spark something and people take credit from me. its absolutely rude. and i hate it.

party song

kaitlin sent me the best party song... like not something i would just listen to but awesome addicting beat.

http://www.hotlinkfiles.com/files/1391029_z3vqu/Headhunterz - Rock Civilization.mp3

lifting

today i had an experience where i felt hopeful.

i was thinking about falling in love on the bus. obviously i don't have much else to do but think but i really like having that time to completely zone out. anyways... i was thinking about falling in love and how i really haven't. then a ladybug landed on my window... most bugs fly off when the bus starts moving. but the lady bug didn't. it stayed on my window until right before i got off the bus. lady bus are supposed to be lucky so i thought maybe that ladybug picked me... maybe it landed on my window for a reason. whatever. well thats the reason for my theme change. dont call me obsessed i just like ladybugs a lot. haha.

Books

i finished all the Twilight books... and ive made a list of books i plan on reading.

• Burned by Ellen Hopkins
• Impulse by Ellen Hopkins
• Identical by Ellen Hopkins
• Crank by Ellen Hopkins
• Glass by Ellen Hopkins
• Go Ask Alice by Anonymus

All very good books so it seems and mostly by one author. the basis of all the books is drugs, sex, self harm and drinking and teenage lives spiraling out of control. some reason those kind of books are so much more REAL than any Clique book or Gossip Girl book. maybe your loss of control in life isnt to the extent of the characters in these novels but i think we can all share in teen angst and stuff. maybe its just me. at the moment i am reading Burned and it is so addicting and i can totally relate to some of the love stuff. i plan on doing a book review when im done with it. 

thinking

i think entirely too much. ☮ end of story ☮

people bug me.

i hate when people think theyre hot stuff. but in reality they arent. they are just full of themselves and declare themselves cooler than everyone.

take for example:

the Freshman... in the words of nikki ... "they think they're hot shit"... thats exactly what they think... traveling in groups no HERDS of 8 + people they stand in the middle of the hallway and block EVERYONE... srsly no one cares who is going out with who... in fact no one cares about the freshman much. they also talk really loud... especially some in my second period class... i can hear everything they say. another bonus for them is that they have some of the sluttiest kids in the whole district. a few got kicked out from washington becuase of bad behavior. good for them... lets set a record... another girl decides to discuss how guys are giving her free weed.... the guy she was telling this to informed her they are probably just giving it to her so they can get her in bed. well isnt that heart warming? i owuld love to be the parents in that situation but they are probably absent in her life anyways... i bet you she'll be pregnant before sophmore year.

sorry but i just had to get that out. i sound overly bitchy but honestly its really true.