Hungry

i am hungry. but not really for food. more for love. i mean i get it more than i deserve but i want romance love. love you can feel in you that radiates in every fiber of your being. i fear that i'll never have that. sorta love. with time is suppose it will come, at least thats what people say to me. i  might not even be ready for it.

i totally freaked out today. some kid was having a twilight discussion with me and he said do you like jacob and i flipped because just previously i had a crush on some named jacob... so embarrassing. i was like oh the indian jacob. i was confusing myself with james... lame save. but i don't really like either of them. * creepy... previous crush jacob just signed online! * except i do kinda like jacob in new moon. he's just overly nice. i hate people who are tooo nice. i like a little badness.

ive just started my blog and you already know one of my biggest secrets... jeeze my life is pathetic. not exciting at all. if you continue to read anymore of these you are dedicated.

im so awkward. just awkward all around. i really hope i grow out of it.

<3