mixed emotions.

im all emotions today. sad, mad, happy, excited, and confused. all at the same time.
ok lets start off with the happy part. I'm doing really well in my classes. this would make some people happy but im more elated. i never used to get As. Especially in math and science. But this year has been so great so far. I mean I started off shaky, but i got an 83 on my spanish midterm. thats really good. and an 88 on my bio midterm, which will bring up my B+ semester grade to an A-. The only class really hard, is History. but its just a hard subject for me.
Ok, excited. I have great new classes (except history). My gym class now has the majority of my friends plus other people i like. Second, I have digital Photo, which looks like its gonna actually be really fun, and i have Sheeran again which is a plus. Lunch worked out good because Steph got to stay with me nikki and lauren.
Now for the downer.
Ok. mad and i suppose sad. because I can't understand all the issues going on. And I just wish people could be happy. And thats so unreasonable because i've had my share of problems. But I hate being the friend who is straddling the line, trying to reason with everyone. And i WANT to listen to people. I like listening. And i dont play sides. What someone says to me stays secret, i never do that. But its so hard to explain to people what i see, because im not involved but i get a different perspective. I don't want to get involved but i want to help. and its confusing.
OK sorry for all that. i needed to get it out. I hate bragging about grades but im finally confident, and i hate talking about friend problems but i just want things to end up ok.
yeah im probably really annoying. adios.