All the lyrics that I wrote not as smart as the words you spoke

ok. so that was a terribly vague post last night.

i had finally gotten over the fact that there were barriers... that there were lines i couldn't cross, i was adapting to that. i was finding other ways to talk, finding ways to get over everything. and then in one night, he has melted those barriers. Do guy friends call their girl friends adorable? like over and over and over. ok, maybe sometimes, but this was weird. it was like he was repeating it for effect. and then he tells me that the whole "him finding out i like him" thing was ridiculous. and he said " It WAS ridiculous because all I said was that i knew." WHAT THE HELL? seriously. what does that mean? he made it pretty clear to emily, me, and even sonia, that he was sorry it had to be this way. ugh. and now he's like clearing his reputation. i didn't question him about it... but i plan on doing it. i am NOT going to let him play with my emotions. its not fair. he is really good at manipulating me. we joke about it too. joke about his charm and how i can't help but tell him things. and i do not want to be used. maybe its not intentional. maybe it is. i don't even know. and then he rambles on and on about me just saying things to elicit a response out of him. and then he said he was doing that to me... but he wouldn't explain it all to me. god its not fair. why did i like someone so fucking complicated?boys are supposed to be a little stupid and kinda oblivious.