Erase myself, and let go of what ive done.

ive truely hit exhaustion.
ive been thinking too much for the past few weeks, i think and think and re-think things over and over until it starts to hurt me. so i arrived home, attempted to play Wii Sports, but was too lazy to, and then grabbed New Moon, my hoodie, my fleece, and a spot by the heat vent, and read... for hours actually. i didn't even hear my mom come in; i was engrossed. and as sick as this sounds, i felt very involved in the story. Reality floated away for a while, and i thought about someone else's life instead of mine. its really refreshing to get out of my world, just to sink into something totally made up and fake, but so real and desirable at the same time. i just awoke from my trance and i feel absolutely lifeless. Sad thing is... i have nothing to feel lifeless about. People i know have far more problems than me. Maybe i'm just seeking some sort of attention, although im not much of an attention whore. Perhaps i have some defect where i feel like i'm falling apart over nothing. I'm pretty sure thats probably insanity. Bring on the padded cell i suppose. Now I'm attempting to stay awake however its gonna be rough. I can't risk sleeping now and then being up all night, however sometimes thats fun because i don't have to be around anyone. emo. that was so emo. But as much as i love being somewhat social with friends, ive got my anti social side too. probably the side no one sees becuase, im social with people. the only ones who might possibly notice are my parents, but they arent the most observant people. But im not complaining, me and my parents have been on good terms for a while now, i havent had huge fight in a while. *knocks on wood* and they are content because ive finally doing good in school and feeling motivated. whatever, not one of you really honestly wants to hear about that hahaha. i'm off to im people and most likey annoy them. ta ta for now.