1. I like him, just as much as before, but instead of worrying how much i flirt because i don't want to come off too strong, now i worry because i don't want to flirt and have him think i'm still flirting even though he's not into me.
2. I hate him. I think when he told me he didn't like me that way, it was just a good opportunity for him to forget me and throw himself completely and totally into his "original goal". Eugene needs to discuss Ambition in the Humanities class. "Tunnel Vision."
3. Everything is absolutely fine. I can handle the just friends thing. I feel free almost. I'm not wasting my time anymore, not thinking about everything i do. Conversations lack the minimal awkwardness they had before.
4. I want him to know how i'm feeling in a face to face conversation. I don't think he is believing that i am in a very similar situation as himself, or he thinks hes in much more pain than me. b. u. l. l. s. h. i. t.
Yeah. Its been almost a week. I *should* be over it. And you all are probably sick of talking to me about it. I'm sick of it too, but Its not over. I think I'm just trying to convince myself that when he said maybe... it meant there is a chance. But my friends don't even say that. I need to just let go of him. But i can't its hard.
sigh. emotionally unstable is the perfect word for my condition.
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we are not sick of hearing about it. i will help you whenever you need it. you know that. you have a sappy letter to prove it
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